DLA prep I

About to do more DLA tribunal prep. So anxious, heart is pounding and want to cry. If this is the state I'm in when in bed with my husband just doing prep for the tribunal, what state am I going to be in on the day? This is a terrible ordeal.

Trying to blank out ESA for now. Trying to believe it will all be ok.
                                                         

Finished prep for the day. Had major brainfog initially but dihydrocodeine helped with that and we got a bit done. Noticed they'd lost some pages in copying my form though so going to have to mention that when Mr phones on Monday too!

Yesterday.

We managed to start prep for the DLA tribunal yesterday. Just a few bullet points for now so we know our main arguments. We're using the Benefits and Work guides. I'm a bit concerned though, as they are talking about this huge booklet of appeal papers, and we don't have anything like that... Are we missing something? Mr is going to have to phone up on Monday and find out, if we're able to wake up early enough.

He also needs to phone the ESA people, as the number they have for me is my parent's house. The thought of him doing them is stressing me out :(

Not coping as well today. I suppose this silly part of me always hoped that we'd be healthy before I was transferred to ESA. And some people dare say it's "just a form".

If I didn't have Mr and God I don't think I'd want to even try and stay alive to make it through all this. They're my strength and they fight for me.

New Battle.

With just under a fortnight until my DLA tribunal, today we start the prep for it. There is no funding available to help us, so we have to work it out ourselves.

Today I also received a brown envelope. This one informing me I'm being moved from IB/IS to ESA. It is terrifying. They intend to phone me in the next couple of weeks - I cannot use phones due to anxiety so here's hoping they will be content speaking to my husband. Then I believe I receive the forms, have very little time to fill them in, and will be faced with a medical and no doubt a tribunal. And then the 6 monthly renewals. It is terrifying. Trying to keep hold of my anxiety. Hoping this doesn't make us relapse. Praying that this isn't as hard as I think it will be.

Entries may be short, limited health, but I will try to follow the process here.